Just write- blog, just blog.

I am listening to “Breathe (2AM)” which is what inspired my blog post title. Let’s face it, it has been the longest I’ve ever gone without blogging, or writing at all, really. And I miss it. So, Christy and I were talking and whining about how it has been so long, so we decided to just do it.

I read her post and then got to looking at her post about Molly and sat and cried for a while because my heart is still broken over it. I suppose it always will be a little bit broken for Molly. I have these pictures from the last time I saw her- they are of Molly and my son, Thomas. He was so sad to say goodbye to her because we knew we were saying goodbye that time. That was why we went out to see them. Normally, I would never go out there in August during the worst drought I’ve lived through in Texas. But, I’m glad I did. And I’m glad my son came with me. It was a window into his heart.

He turned fourteen this weekend and it was kind of a neat birthday. He doesn’t want things the way he used to want them. He shows hints of the man he is going to become at funny times. Like wanting to go with me to say goodbye to Molly. Or when he gets hurt if I don’t trust him or just believe him. I’m thankful that he can articulate that, too, even if it makes me feel ashamed.

Linking up with Just Write from the Extraordinary Ordinary Heather.